date:Thursday, July 28, 2011
time:12:40 AM
title:Secrets
No one know what im doing all this while, no one. I guess i managed to keep mine secrets safe and sound. Sigh.
If only they knew, they be proud of me.
date:Sunday, July 17, 2011
time:9:10 AM
title:Please help me find him.
I know your mad at me for lying to you, i know your mad at me because i cheated your feelings. I know your mad at me for not telling you the thruth.
I know your mad at me for so many reason ):
but syauqi, please dont go. I needed you the most now. Please dont? ):
you know i let down my reputation because of you.
You know how i endure people calling me a slut just because im engaged and people saw us lovey dovey with eachother.
Dont you know how hurtful it is? But i still go through because i know you were the one i needed the most back then. No one else were there, is just you ):
i know yamie will feel happy that his friend is taking goodcare of me. How i wish yamie is here, things wouldnt be so cork up. I wouldnt have suffer much.
My superhero will never let me suffer. You know i sort of miss your gila babiness. I mean his gila babiness who go to the etreme to make sure im in no harm.
But you ): you really remind me so much of him.
I lost everything ): i lost everything. I would never want to lose another anymore.
I lost baby ): i lost mum warm love ): i lost baby yat ): i love brother aizad ): i love sister eka ): i love brother fiq and jid ): i lost mimi ): but thats a goodpart.
I lost yamie ):
and now please dont telled me i lost you ):
i badly misses you ): remember who drop by everyday to take goodcare of me eventhough people knew you were a stranger to them?
You thicken your face for that.
Remember who put me to sleep telling me about all his skateboarding activity despite being 22 years old?
Remember who always was my hair and dry it for me cos im not allowed to me?
Remember who helped me up most of the time? ):
dont you remember the fun we had before my accident?
Do you remember?
Do you remember how we would argue eachtime we want to eat?
Do you remember how you call me and complain that you were hungry at 2am in the morning till i have to sneak out from mimi house and bring you to eat before i send you home?
Do you remember who immediately left work and attend to you as soon as she heard that you injure yourself during skateboarding even if its just a minor cut?
Do you remember all the fun times we had?
Do you even remember how shy you were the first time you try to hold my hand and when you suceed the first thing you said was that you managed to hold my hand, can you hold it longer?
Do you even remember how we would scream our lungs out trying to compare whose the tallest and you always said im a playcheat because of the heels.
Do you remember how cute you were when you said that you wanted to kiss me but then you scared because we were just friends?
Do you remember how passionate was our kiss?
Do you remember all the things that we did?
Baby please dont go ): baby please ):
dear god, im getting back on track now. But please god, telled me where is he ):
